Last night, Boy’s father came over and we sat down and had a conversation about life insurance. LIFE INSURANCE!
I’m not saying it was a bad conversation or anything, but I am slightly in disbelief about the fact that I
1) Actually had this conversation and
2) Had logical questions about what we discussed.
I think this stems from the fact that my life seems a little bit foreign to me, not because I don’t enjoy it (aside from the workaday bull$h!t, it’s the best it has ever been), but because I cannot believe that I am the age that I am.
I mean I know I’m 26, but there’s this part of me that somehow feels younger than that. Maybe because I started college at 17 and graduated by 20, my internal timeline has been thrown off, I don’t know. But whenever I hear about someone I went to school with buying a house or having a baby, I find myself in a state of disbelief. “How are on earth are they doing that?” I think to myself, “They’re so young!” But then I remember the reality of the situation and realize that 26 is a perfectly respectable age to do those things. After all, my own father was married and had a kid by my age.
So yesterday, when we were talking about our financial plan, even though I was fully aware of what was going on, I still had a few “Holy crap!” moments.
So you’re wanting to buy a house? Yes. (Holy crap!)
You thinking about having kids in the upcoming years? Yes. (Holy crap!)
You want to start putting away money for your pension? Yes. (Holy crap!)
All these things are great things, they’re happy things, and I’m looking forward to going through them with such a great partner by my side. We have even had a bunch of hypothetical discussions about where we might live and what our kids names will be and thinking about it all does give me warm and fuzzy feelings. But anytime anyone realistically brings up all that big future planning stuff with me, I kind of feel like it should be happening to someone else because I just graduated from school! . . . Six years ago. :S
Anyway, I know a lot of people in my age group read this blog, so I gotta know – do you ever feel overwhelmed talking about THE FUTURE? How do you deal with the “Holy crap!” moments?