I have officially embarked on my second wait-a-thon this year. This one is slightly more complicated than the last in that, this time, I am being given an assignment which I am to hand in next month.
On many levels, I appreciate this because:
1) It shows some confidence in my abilities.
2) It gives me a chance to prove myself in a way I wouldn’t be able to in just a shake-hands-sit-down situation.
However, on another level, it is giving me a major case of the nerves because it’s made me realize that:
1) This is actually a serious situation.
2) I have something to lose now.
And the thing is that I really don’t want to lose out here because this would be kind of amazing. It would of course be new and scary because I’d be jumping into something that I have never done before, but the things that could come from this could be good for me. Change. Learning. Travel.
I could actually stretch myself professionally. I could actually have a bit of money. I could actually see Europe. I’ve been feeling so long like I’ve been in this weird prolonged adolescent phase in that I’ve been stuck waiting for something to happen and this could be it.
Anyway, it’s tricky because I’m not only up against people that have more experience but people who live in the States as well (they’re advertising in New York), but I’m crossing my fingers that something good will come from this.
If you can, send some good juju my way to calm these nerves of mine, because I’m in desparate need right now!